IT IS SO OVER!!

WOW!! IT'S BEEN ALMOST OR OVER A MONTH I DIDN'T WIRTE MY BLOG
SORRY BLOGGY I WAS BUSY WITH MY COURSEWORK.....

i don't really have any exciting to say but it's awesome to me cuz the first semester is over....WOOHOO!!(WINDOWS DOWN MUSIC PLAYING IN MY ROOM RIGHT NOW)

the exam was a calamity.... i cried a lot....for all papers......i studied until 3 am woke up at 4 am and i still  cant answer it.....it's making me miserable....waiting for the results to be post at my house seems like a year.....i need a break from all this tension but my mind couldn't stop thinking about it.....

things got worst was when i feel like i'm so stupid....my friends back home have achieved something great while i studying hard and striving to live in TGB did not get the marks i expected.......my dad of course keep giving pressure by saying that my friends are all studying and they did well, so you better be good........my mom keep saying "you are weak you dont even get this", every time she teaches me......sometimes i just need someone to talk to but there's no one around.....everyone here has their own problems........living in a no.1 school in malaysia is so stressful......i wrote everything in my journal and my english teacher keeps on motivate me...but it's not enough.....sometimes i just feel like i need to tell my parents "they're living home, i live here...i dont have time to relax and they do...i only have maximum 3 hours of sleep everyday and they have more....i came here to make you happy so please dont push to the edge becuz i'm too exhausted to work more...."

my teacher said i need to go see a doctor becuz i lost a lot of weight and she's afraid  i might get an eating disorder......i feel like my effort here is useless......i need to put an end to this BUT I CAN'T STOP CUZ I HAVE

550 DAYS TO LIVE HERE IN TGB .................

IT'S A MAJOR HORROR

P/S: GOT MY ADD MATHS AND MOD MATHS RESULTS... IT'S TOTALLY NOT SATISFYING...I'M TOO EMBARASS TO TALK ABOUT IT WITH MY FRIENDS.....